So... Guess what i just did? I'd say my excuse is i'm mad for only having lost 1.6 pound. & still feeling fat, fatter... The fattest. But that's just a lame.
I just ate:
2 slices of veggie pizza
Half a cesar salad wrap
1 slice of cheescake
Half a slice of chocolate cake
So, i wasn't thinking... After i ate all that crap i ran to the bathroom and try throwing up (gorss i know) but i couldn't. I haven't done that in a long time... So i just gave up & ran to the kitchen looking for laxatives, but i found nothing. Until i found this "laxative tea", it's suppose to help you lose weigh without making diets. You have to drink 2 per day. But i was so desperate i drank four.
FAIL. Girls, i am so sorry for being such a big disappointment. I should be an inspiration, but i'm not. I'm a stupid fat cow who has no freaking control.
This is it. Tomorrow i'm doing a liquid fast.
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I mean it's not that i'm skinny there, but i sure look better than i do now. I need to back to that. I can't keep on being the fat insecure girl i've become.
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| This is me... A year and a half ago, when i weighed 125. |
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You better believe that I tried to beat this.
When will this end, it goes on and on
Over, and over, and over again.
Keep spinning around I know it won't stop,
Till I step down from this for good
I never thought I'd end up here
I never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this,
I guess I was wrong
4 comments:
I know how you feel. I hate it when I lose control. It's like my brsin switches off and my hunger (or sometimes lack of it) takes over ><
Good luck with your liquid fast! I'll be rooting for you~ x
don't give up.
i am also going through hard times these days.
we need to get aware fo what we need most. of being thin.
you can do this (: i am sure you can!
stay strong xo
stay strong..! i cant ever do liquid fast on weekends coz my parents and relatives are all around :( but i'll be fasting on monday. i guess we sometimes need to binge. don't forget that we burn 50 cal for every hour we sleep! ;)
keep safe.
xx
Girl hang in there,
I'm here for you (:
Stay strong and keep your chin up; you'll make it through.
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